In fight club Chuck Palahniuk wrote, “everyone you love will either reject you or die.”
That fit perfectly into my worldview. I thought everything was fucked, I thought I was fucked, I thought you were fucked. We were all fuckity fuck fuck fucked.
Then Dennis, my heavily tattooed and fucking amazing therapist, helped me see it: whenever something good came along, I knew it would end badly. Childhood taught me that.
Noticing it gave me the chance to change.
It takes courage to believe in the goodness and beauty of life.
I mean, it's not wrong. The idea that life is brutal, it is. Always has been, always will be. We live on the ground where thunder and lightning play.
Accepting that, and choosing to have faith in love and fate? To enjoy the beauty of however long we have here?
That was my ticket to a joyful life.
It started with awareness.
When we notice, we can observe, and when we observe, then we can begin to change.
We'll change either way, it’s been said, it’s the only constant in life, but we can have a say in which direction and in what ways.
